Day 1 of the 30 Days of Truth project…
I am extremely self deprecating so while I was trying to pick out one thing I hate about myself, I decided to pick on the fact that I can’t pick just one thing.
I hate that I can’t love myself 100%. I hate that I’m always nit picking and finding faults, even when I should be loving myself and lifting myself up. I hate that I’m in a constant mode of beating myself up for things that happened yesterday, months, years ago. I hate that I can’t let go of things. I continue to beat myself up, constantly.
I hate that I hate things I can’t change. I hate that I hate things I CAN change but do not have the willpower or guts to change them. I hate that I preach to everyone “If you don’t like something, change it”… Yet here I sit in my chair, too scared or too lazy to change my own shortcomings or bad situations.
I hate that I find fault in the things I excel at. I hate that I have to pick every little thing apart and dissect it. And I hate knowing that someday it might consume me completely.