Day 1 – Something you hate about yourself

Published 16 January, 2011 by itsaheartache

Day 1 of the 30 Days of Truth project…

I am extremely self deprecating so while I was trying to pick out one thing I hate about myself, I decided to pick on the fact that I can’t pick just one thing.

I hate that I can’t love myself 100%.  I hate that I’m always nit picking and finding faults, even when I should be loving myself and lifting myself up.  I hate that I’m in a constant mode of beating myself up for things that happened yesterday, months, years ago.  I hate that I can’t let go of things.  I continue to beat myself up, constantly.

I hate that I hate things I can’t change.  I hate that I hate things I CAN change but do not have the willpower or guts to change them.  I hate that I preach to everyone “If you don’t like something, change it”… Yet here I sit in my chair, too scared or too lazy to change my own shortcomings or bad situations.

I hate that I find fault in the things I excel at.  I hate that I have to pick every little thing apart and dissect it.  And I hate knowing that someday it might consume me completely.

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